Saturday night one of my girlfriends cooked and hosted a Friendsgiving dinner. I was excited about seeing my girlfriends since I haven't seen them in a while. The host just bought her first home so it was a housewarming celebration as well. There were eight ladies who attended, and we were all decked out in our beautiful dresses and done up hair (requested by the host). It was indeed a special event.
I always make fun of my friend, the host, for being such a type A woman. She's an alpha for sure but so are most of my girlfriends including me. We all have big personalities and even bigger dreams and goals which is a beautiful thing. Last nights dinner, we discussed what we were thankful for, our goals, our accomplishments, food, and sex. Great topic of discussion if you ask me. What made this dinner even more beautiful is that two different groups of my friends finally got to sit down and get to know one another. I have many groups of girlfriends but last night were the two groups I'm closest to. We had my "Fremont Girls" who are more conservative and quiet, and then we had my "Oakland Girls" who are more expressive and loud. Oh and I can't forget about my "City Girl" from San Francisco who also joined. I was a little nervous before dinner because I wasn't sure how the vibe was going to be. This was the first time, we all got to sit down in a more intimate setting. Overall, the dinner was a great success and it was fun and loving.
I haven't seen my girlfriends in quite some time. I've been taking time out to focus on my goals. But it was nice to take a break and chill with a bunch of smart beautiful women. I have to be honest though. I don't always feel this way about my friends. Sometimes they can absolutely get on my nerves. I have one gf who is obnoxious and loud with her never ending jokes, one who lacks confidence in the beauty she exhibits, and another who always has to be the center of attention. There are these little quirks in them that I find myself being annoyed by, and then that's when I need to give myself a reality check. Because there are times when I hold myself in such high regard, I can become a bit arrogant and think I know it all, as in the "right" way to live. Ha! What a bunch of BS. This is exactly when I need to humble and ground myself. And then it hits me, all those things I find annoying, I realize are the reasons why I love them in the first place. They're not negative or liars or destructive by any means. They're all just trying to find peace within themselves. Shit, we all are, including myself.
I get a huge reality check when I see them or when I notice my train of thought running and have to remind myself I'm not perfect what so ever, and quite, frankly, I don't want to be anymore. It's exhausting because I've tried. When we're together, I'm totally reminded about how judgmental I'm being. I'm reminded about how loving and beautiful our friendship is. I'm reminded about how they accept me for every single flaw I have without judgment. I'm reminded about how much they love me unconditionally. I'm reminded about how they are supportive of one another and only want the best for each other. I'm reminded about humbleness and humanity. I'm reminded about patience and acceptance. I'm reminded about love and friendship.
I don't know it all. So why do I try to force my beliefs or way of living on my friends? I do this more in my mind when they're not around verses in person. This is something I'm working on and definitely getting better at. Despite our differences in the way we choose to live our lives, our common ground is love and support without judgment What more could a girl ask for? So if I want an abundance of unconditional love, then an abundance of unconditional love I shall give.
A little about me...
I'm learning how to look at everything with love, even if it seems impossible, like rush hour traffic. I want to share my journey of self-love so that others may want to emulate and pass it on into the universe. Ohh...and sometimes people call me Suzie.