So I started a 30 day cleanse on 10/28/15, and today is actually the first day of a deep cleanse. There are four deep cleanses within the 30 days. The 30 day cleanse consists of two shakes and one meal. Whereas a deep cleanse consists of 4 cleanse drinks throughout the day and no meals or shakes (email me if you'd like to know more). I chose to do my deep cleanse today and tomorrow, along with three other people for support. The group I'm detoxing with meet regularly once a week, and we talk about a lot of positive things, like spirituality, nutrition, the list goes on and on. I'm really thankful to have met such a cool and loving group of people.
Anyway, my first day of deep cleansing couldn't have come at a better time. Not only am I detoxing my body, but I am in much need of detoxing my mind and soul. Remember NYC guy I just wrote about in my last blog? My weekend rendezvous? I just spoke to him this morning, and thankfully he was honest to me and shared with me that he had a week long rendezvous with a woman from Brazil. Ouch. I really liked him. But you know what? I really love myself so much more. I have now made a commitment to myself to completely let him go. Let him go in my imagination of being together "someday". Let go of my feelings I have for him. Just let go of everything, and I'm ok with that. It's not that I didn't like him because I did. I mean just read below, and you'll get the gist of how I felt about him. But at the end of the day, he's toxic. I don't want any toxins in my life. I mean fuck, I'm detoxing my body for my health. Why not detox my life for peace of mind? The old me was never like this. I would drag it on and on as far as it would go. I can't do that anymore because I know my worth.
I am also letting go of a man I'm casually dating. Every time I felt lonely or bored, I'd run to him. But you know what? Although he wasn't toxic, he was a distraction. A distraction from learning how to love my own company. A distraction from pursuing my goals. Not his fault at all. But it was easier to run to him than to focus on shit I needed to get done in order to get closer to my goals.
I'm thankful for all of my beautiful girlfriends who are always there for me. Through times when I'm not so lovable and to moments of just plain insanity, they have stuck by me. I speak of them because today when I ended my call with NYC guy, I needed support, and they were right there without any hesitation. I appreciate my life. I know how valuable it is. That's why when he told me about his week, I knew what I couldn't put up with. I'm thankful the Universe/God removed him from my life, and today of all days. A day when I decide to do a deep detox. God's timing is always perfect.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
A little about me...
I'm learning how to look at everything with love, even if it seems impossible, like rush hour traffic. I want to share my journey of self-love so that others may want to emulate and pass it on into the universe. Ohh...and sometimes people call me Suzie.